There once was a little bird who came into this world thinking that her place was in the nest. The nest was safe and warm and predictable. The nest was comfortable and the little bird too was comfortable. One day another bird convinced the the little bird to look out over the twig and twine walls of the nest. What the little bird saw was a whole beautiful world with a bright blue sky on the horizon. Aloud the little bird said “Some day I will go there.” The other bird said “Little bird, why not go there today?” and the little bird didn’t respond. And so the other bird continued to show the little bird pieces of the world out over the edges of the nest. One day the little bird said “I think I will go there today.” The other bird swiftly pushed the little bird from the safe and warm comfort of the nest and she began to plumet towards the ground. Like magic, the little bird began to flap her own wings. Instead of hitting the ground, she soared off in to the bright blue horizon.Recently I have felt extremely validated in this blogging/creative journey. I’m happy with my work, with the opportunities coming my way and with my state of mind in general. While reflecting on that this week, I remembered a time, not more than a few months ago, when I doubted if I could do this on my own. If I was good enough, pretty enough, talented enough to even try. If I did this all by myself would it work? Would anyone care? It was terrifying. I found myself at a point where I had to decide if I even wanted to try to make it happen. It turns out I wanted it a lot more than I had convinced myself beforehand. When I didn’t have help I found ways of creating content on my own. I used the resources I had to get something I was proud of and people responded to it. Eventually I built up my network so that I could help and be helped by my peers. This has been my greatest success so far. But even with other people to help and guide me its even more reassuring to know that if/when needed, I can do this on my own.
In the beginning when you feel like you’ve been tossed to the wolves or kicked out of the nest the natural feeling of panic sets in fast. But I think if you can find some sort of footing there is no reason why you can not find a way to soar. There are so many obstacles and set backs that come with life but if you really want something you will find a way to make it work. Whether that means working a little harder, getting more creative, modifying the path you saw ahead of you. There are a lot more factors to feeling successful but you will never know what it could feel like if you don’t continue to try.
So this is the summer I embrace sneakers. It’s been a long time since I’ve worn sneakers in a non athletic setting. I know this trend has been around for awhile but now is the time I feel ready for it. White sneakers are a great way to update a sundress. It feels very cool to pair such casual shoes with more dressed up options. Recently I’ve found myself pairing them with a lot of work clothes, like khaki pants (omg that makes me sound like such a mom), or black skinny jeans and a blazer. My work place is business casual so clean white sneakers just toe the line of our dress code. Or at least, no one has yelled at me for them yet. Sometimes it’s better to ask forgiveness than permission.
Photography : MD Black